I’m on a computer at the College I attend. I’m waiting for a certain counselor to approve my graduation. 6 years ago I began a journey, a journey of self discovery and learning. When I was 18, I signed up for my first semester of college, and let’s just say it wasn’t at all what I planned.
I went to college for one reason; because I was supposed to go to college. I didn’t really have any clue what I wanted to do or be, I just figured I had to go to college. So after only a couple of weeks, I withdrew from all my classes and moved 1200 miles away to live on a farm in Illinois. I guess I was escaping, but maybe it was the best thing for me at the time. After a few months on that farm, I decided to go back to college. Why? Because I was suppose to. See a pattern yet? So this time I stuck around and finished out the semester, sort of. I missed a lot of class, and ended up getting F’s in all my courses. That’s right…so there I was my first year of college completed, and I had 6 W’s and 5 F’s. Hardly any way to start a collegiate career!
Over the next few years, I dabbled in school, forcing myself to go. I passed some, dropped some, and got a few more F’s, never really caring.
It wasn’t until last year, when I was officially banned from financial aid that I gave up. I lost hope, thinking I’d never be able to graduate. So, I focused on myself and didn’t think about school at all. Then a strange thing happened. I was 3 credits from my AA, and if I got that class passed, there was a chance I could go on to the University of South Florida and get my Bachelor’s. The thought began to haunt me. I’d have dreams about it, it was always on my mind. I needed to take this class.
So what began as something I did with a blase attitude, ended up becoming a burning desire to complete. The point of all this is summed up in the next few lines.
- If you want something bad enough, it will become a burning desire, you will not rest until you have it.
- Failure is impossible; you can never fail if you don’t give up.
- Success is only a decision away, the moment you make the choice to succeed, you already have, because thoughts are the precursor to reality.
- You are never down and out, maybe you’re down for a day, but you are NEVER OUT
So, this summer I decided to take the last class I needed to get my AA and go on to “real college”. And that class was? Speech…(duhn duhn duhn!) If I’m like any of you, it was a class I didn’t particularly look forward to. I’ll write another article soon about overcoming the fear of public speaking and making the best of what we have to do, whether or not we want to do it. Anyway, I signed up for the class, took it, and now we only have 1 week left. After next week, I will have my AA degree, something that seemed impossible when I was 19 with no credits and a bunch of F’s. The real trick to it was that I never gave up. I focused on the goal and had to undo a lot of bad I had done. Sometimes I wish I could go back and fix that stupid kid I used to be, but then I think that he helped to make me who I am, so perhaps it was all meant to be.
All I know is that it’s taken me 6 years to get my AA, but it won’t take that long to get my Bachelors.