I am so happy in my life right now. Business is going great; I am helping to make a documentary film called “Church Of Felons”, I have been married for over a year to my beautiful wife, Rebecca. Today is her last day of school. She’s about to have her Master’s degree in English with a focus in Creative Writing. I couldn’t be prouder of her.
I’m also happy because even though my weight isn’t where I want it to be, I am finally coming to terms with myself. This doesn’t mean I accept being overweight, it just means that I am no longer going to “hate” myself for my excess fat. I can’t tell you for how long I’ve judged myself completely and solely by my weight. It actually makes me very sad.
I could think of myself as a successful entrepreneur, a good friend, a husband, a brother, a son, and so many other things… but instead for years I’ve had this idea in my head that if I’m fat, then I’m nothing. I have no value.
In some ways being on the show was the greatest experience of my life. But there is a “long tail” that follows me around. Sometimes I feel ashamed for regaining weight, like I have let down the fans who cheered me on. But I can’t keep feeling like that. This is my Jesus year (33) and I am going to continue pursuing all my goals and no longer apologize for being me.
I have been going to therapy to continue working on my weight and will continue to do so. I have also started getting back into OA. I have accepted that this process for me won’t be fast, won’t be easy, but it will be worth it.
And that makes me happy.
Being me the last few years has been a little weird. I haven’t had the freedom to be myself as much. I’ve been afraid to post pictures of myself on Facebook. In many ways, I’ve been hiding out of fear of judgement. Not anymore.
I am me, and I am happy.
My Big Announcement
I’ve decided to recreate this blog in my image. I am rebranding to cover all the aspects of who I am. I am not just my weight. I am not just a number on a scale. I am so much more. And I want this blog to cover all of that.
I’m not exactly sure yet when it will happen, but I am beginning now to think of how I want the new blog to look. I will cover different aspects of me that I hope could help other people in various areas of their lives.
Entrepreneur. Entertainment. Education.
Oh, and Faith.
A big part of my life is my faith in Jesus Christ. I don’t talk about it as much as I probably should on here, so I’ll do a better part of that. I’m not here to shove religion down anybody’s throat, but my faith is a huge part of my identity so I’ll have a section on that as well.
And yes, I’ll still cover health of course. It’s important to me as well. I may even start by interviewing some experts to help us all out. 🙂
So, another year has passed. Believe it or not, next year will be my 10-year anniversary of launching OnlyOneMike.com – hard to fathom that.
I started this blog when I was a broke 24-year-old still living at home with my Mom. Now I live in a kind of cool house in the “nice” area with my incredible wife and two crazy dogs. And someday soon, I’ll be a dad.
I’ve got a pretty good life.
And that makes me happy.